Home Again and a Big WDE!

I made it back from Dallas in one piece. It was a very hectic and emotional week but I think that it was a good thing that I went because it did keep my mind off things for the most part. I did have an emotional meltdown while I was out there. Things just started pilling up and at some point everyone has a breaking point and I guess I had reached mine. I had a great talk with my manager in the cab on the way to the airport and came clean about everything I had been going through this past year and it really brought me to peace with alot of things. It is extremely hard being a successful woman this day and time. There is a stigmatism out there that even hard working successful woman quit work when they have a child so I felt that I needed to keep my personal struggle with starting a family from those at work so they didn't see me as weak or think that I was on my way out. I feel alot better now that I have gotten this off my chest and he knows that even though I had some of my darkest days this past year I kept work in the forefront and never let if falter despite the greiving, loss and sadness I might have been going through. I made it back safely Friday night and exhausted is not even a good word for how I felt yesterday morning when I woke at 6 am to head to ATL for the SEC game...my eyes litterally hurt. The game was fabulous, even though I caught a few z's on scott's shoulder in the 2nd quarter, yeah I was that tired...I did catch the hail mary at the end of the 1st half and that got me up and going again. The game was great and the energy in the dome was off the charts, I am so glad we are finally getting our chance to go to a National Championship game and I hope that Cam gets what he deserves as a player next Saturday, he so deserves it.

As for us we are going to meet with Dr. Malizia on Tuesday to talk about what she learned from this failed IVF attempt. She left a very sweet and hearfelt message on my phone on Tuesday, I really think she thoguht this was it for us. Scott and I are still skeptical about doing a FET in January just because it is such an emotional rollercoaster and at some point you have to quit challenging Mother Nature. We will have a child and God will put us on the right path to one, we just have to keep looking.